i am so incredibly sad and upset. where did we go wrong? why? i dont understand. i miss you but i cant take this emotional ride. have i lost yet another one? have i lost myself?

two crustaceans brush up whilst feeding on algae and other bottom vegetation, their hard shells clunk together providing an awkward yet admirable dance....well its more of a confused waltz. the opportunity was clenched by two stubborn pincers, both unsure why they did it but too afraid to let go. what started out of curiosity and perhaps even desperation a friendship was born. circumstances allowed for a hasty companionship, and a bond was formed. fickle arguments were common and they rarely saw eye to eye, yet there was a love that existed, and it was tender and fragile. the two crabs brandished their claws and buffed out their shells, warding off any potential hurt. unfortunately they ended up hurting each other, most often in self defense and insecurity. subtle tactics eroded the already weakening bond, until finally it was severed.

i shed a tear for every incident of pain felt by the two lost crabs. and because of this i have not stopped weeping.

how is it that love, caring and joy becomes anger, resentment and sadness. how is an innocent escapade become one of imprisonment and conditions. eploitation of emotions and manipulation. i feel ill at the mere thought of what sinister demons were at work. there is only sadness now, confusion also.

praise the creator

lifeisgoood

manifesting these words into virtual space will help me realize it in reality.


NO MORE FRIED FOODS

What Crabs most fear

if setting you free means that you will find true happiness unhinged from any conditions beset by my needy nature, then so be it.

you have barely lived beyond the womb and you want to settle, i can see it in your eyes, even though you deny it. I love you for your commitment, regardless of what underlying forces may be behind it, it is noble to the least. I love you, and i am learning how to love more authentically, you are young and have much to learn, open your mind fully, and give your whole being into manifesting your highest purpose. Dont look at me, look at yourself. YOU are much more important.

love until it hurts.

residues of funk have crusted on windowsills of this old home
with the shifting seasons the paint flakes off
and in the dim dawn you can see the symbols of the past etched by ancient fingertips beneath the foggy windowpane.
this home was vibrant once, lively with the inebriated conversation of lovers, friends and foes alike
but no voice resonates here no more, as it is vacant like your eyes.

severing the umbilical cord

a vast amount of grown men live their entire adult lives attached to the umbilical cord that causes them to be dependent of their mothers or to be dependent upon things that are substituted to fill in the need for constant appraisal and attention. This shallow sense of security derives from fearing life as it manifests itself as a type of clinging on to the womb. In all of our lives at some point we will fear life and the masculine will detest it through halfhearted efforts, or will regress into the womb yearning state that we all grasp for during times of uncertainty.

Having girl problems? then stop looking towards her for approval, A man should trust in his purpose in life and if he is honest to his mission that his woman will naturally understand and respect him for it. She will test you time after time and you will never win, learn to laugh and love her when she is difficult. your impatience will reveal your weakness to her and your relationship will turn stale.

i know this from experience and this is solely from what i have witnessed, circumstances may be different for others but i feel aligned with this natural pattern.

life....WTF IS IT?

there are few truths i know of in this world

one of them is that i exist in one form or another, and the rest is all small print.