April 10th already!

Oh Grandfather time why do you tax needlessly? It seems these days i havent the slightest second to spare seeing how majority of it is spent working for bread crumbs and then looking for escapes of the fixed clockwork that seems to have invaded my life. forgetting about the mundane work day by blanketing the stress with a nice alcoholic beverage seems to be the simplest way, the easiest way. But it is the wrong way, seeing how absolutely nothing will come out of it, well nothing progressive for that matter. its apparently obvious i have been neglecting my artistic and interpersonal reflective endeavors seeing how i haven't written in this blog for nearly a month. and its not like i cant take 15 minutes to scribble something down quickly, i have just lost the inspiration in my life that was once so apparent and spilling at the brim, so many ideas i have forgotten and neglected to pursue for reasons unaccounted for. no excuses, simply must get back on track, shambhala is only 4 months away and i am definitely not at the level of fitness and focus i am trying to attain.

no more distractions!
sacrificing certain wants and abolishing of bad habits.
balancing relationship with personal endeavors
uncompromisable diligence necessary
standing firm on my beliefs while allowing other opinions to flow and manifest tolerance.